Summer '05

Now that I'm back home for the summer, how are things so far? It's nice to come back to the familiar, predictable Orange County. I need this break away from the hustle and bustle of Berkeley. It's been kind of good and bad. I've oscillated between fear and relief, depending on changes in the situation. Other times I've been listless and lethargic. In between, I made some big decisions. Had my first biopsy a few days ago. I also found time to do some things I'm not proud of. I wonder if I can think clearer now that I'm here? Or is being back making me revert back to things better avoided? I think sometime not long ago I took a bad turn, lost my focus. I don't like where I'm going. At the way things are going, something's got to give, and it did. I need to take a firm stance. I think at last I'm beginning to. Everything's contingent isn't it?